This week I learned about Randy Pausch. He had terminal pancreatic cancer and was given only a few months to live. He gave a lecture called “The Last Lecture” about achieving your childhood dreams. In his somewhat short lifetime, he was able to achieve his childhood dreams because he did not let brick walls stop him. He had big dreams with NASA and Disney as an Imagineer but was rejected. Did that stop him? No! He saw the challenge not as the end of the line, but the beginning for those who fought with everything they had to make their dreams a reality. He fought to make his dreams a reality!
When I was younger, my only dream was to have kids. I didn’t
think about much else to be honest. My mom, grandma, sister, aunts were all
homemakers. They had babies for 20 years and stayed home to raise them. I didn’t
know anything else. My parents never really encouraged me to think of anything
else. I married a man who gave me just that. I made my dream come true and had
as many babies as I possibly could as fast as I could. John is a dreamer though
and would talk to me about his plans for our future. I was happy for him to
have these dreams, but I didn’t really invest much thinking into it because I
was elbow deep in diapers. When my last baby turned 18 months, I started
feeling sad because I didn’t think I had much of a purpose anymore. Being
pregnant and having newborns was my purpose and without it I was feeling lost.
I realized that I had accomplished all my dreams. I had didn’t realize that I
needed dreams after getting all my babies earthside. So, I was left to wonder
what to do with my life. I was only 33 years old and knew I had at least 33 more
years to find something to look forward to instead of death. I wish someone had
sat me down and told me that there is life after babies, and I need to figure
out what I wanted out of that life. Now, I’ve made my husband’s dreams my dreams.
I want to be with him for the rest of my life, and what better way to do that
then to have the same dream and tailor it to fit us? I have learned that having
dreams is crucial to your mental health, and I am going to encourage my kids to
think of their dreams for the WHOLE life and then go for it!
Something that I learned in class this week that I have
never done before is make a bucket list. As I watched the clip from the Bucket
List, I got emotional because I want to make sure that I live a rich life full of
experiences before I die. It was something I needed because like I said before,
I hadn’t really thought of my life after babies. I am looking forward to
learning more about how to find my dreams.
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